Back on the train again.

I am smart enough to know when I am falling down. Or at least to know when to stick my hand out for help as I go down. My eating hasn’t gotten worse, but it has been so very unguided and not supporting the amount of calories I am burning. I am peaking at working out but my food is still wanting for attention. My calories are too small and I learned early this winter that my weight is made is in the kitchen. Thankfully, my choices were never hard and I haven’t over indulged.

The emotionally addicted eater in me was starting to make her presence known. I began to reason that I knew I needed more calories so maybe I should have that piece of cake. Or those cracker’s calories are the carbs I need even though the list of ingredients are longer than my daughters birthday list. Burning more calories puts you into a balance of needing more carbs and protein to fuel your body and let’s be honest I am not a fitness expert. In fact, I am far from it and more importantly my fitness and weight right now is fluid. That means is rapidly (though it feels slow to me) changing.

I need guidance. I need someone/something to teach me. I needed it now. I have come too far. I am living and eating as if I were 45 lbs heavier and that just doesn’t work for me anymore. As I lay in bed this am I sat and contemplated what I needed to do to get this final 10-15 lbs off. I contemplated how I can nourish my body so that I don’t have to give up this stuff I love. I love working out with Kpuff. I love going hard and I love watching her and I killing it more and more every single day. I love running and watching and seeing my self-esteem blossom from this time and effort spent on me.

I know there are no quick fixes. I know there is no magical answer. But I do know I have a formula that has worked for me before and that is the 21 day fix. Now enter 21 day fix extreme which takes into account higher activity levels and boom I got my formula! So I am at it again.

21 Day: Round 2: Day 1

Not gonna lie I struggle at the beginning every single time. It is SOOOOOO much food. I feel bloated. I feel gross. I feel like all I did was eat. The amounts of proteins and carbs are higher than I am used to so I am especially bloated. But I know this the right thing for me for right now.

For breakfast I had my usual

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Two organic eggs, 1 piece of whole wheat toast, cherries and I also had a 1 tsp of peanut butter with a huge glass of ice water

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My mid-morning snack was a shake and good golly miss molly this is where things felt super full. But it came highly recommended as a snack for active athletes for nutrient deficiencies. Especially when we are talking about depletion.

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And my usual and favorite staple for lunch….salmon patties….broccoli, quinoa and wild brown rice and apple sauce.

Insert beautiful picture of dinner here which was 2 corn tortilla shelled tacos covered in lettuce, salsa and Mexican cheese.

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PM snack: I still and missing greens so I had a go with this. It is pretty high sodium for 21 day, but I was desperate and need to go grocery shopping. So it worked for me for now.

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At the end of the day I still am missing a few of my containers, but I know it will be a growing process and I love having the guide again to change things up for the activity level I am. Yea I am back on the train. The first round I really trained myself on how to eat correctly, so I have high hopes I will be there again. I will get this figured out. I am worth every single second of it. My family was super supportive of my decision to do this again. Although, they always are super proud of me, so that helps!

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