So at the beginning of this week my stomach started hurting bad. Like ulcer had returned bad. Meds back on and I moved on. The week was going great and I was running about 3 miles a day. Or at least every other day.
Fast forward to Wednesday night. The goal was to come straight home and get my work out duds on and run because I was home early. As I was walking in my house I went to step up on a step and I was all the sudden struck by searing cannot talk through kinda of pain in my left side. I yelped out and dropped my work bag and purse immediately and I moved myself to the couch.
My guy did what he does….looked at me and went back to what he was doing. My # 2 did what she does put on her worried momma hat. She started asking all kinds of questions and I couldn’t even get the answers out. I stretched out on the couch and just kind laid there for awhile. I contacted the doctor and none of the big things to look for post surgery were going on. No fever. No blood. Nothing other than pain. I was left with contact us tomorrow.
Contacted them tomorrow and nurse decided it was best to be seen. We kind of left with a call us Friday morning and update and we will see how you are. I called in first thing in the morning. By this time the pain was not as bad, but definitely still there. I struggled with sudden movements and sitting down all centered around my left side. They asked me to do the run through again and the scheduler asked if she could talk with my doctor real quick while I waited. Her response after a few minute wait was, “Can you leave right now and get in here in 40 minutes?” Two minutes later I was out the door.
I got in and it was so clear this was the let’s see if my patients will go into labor day at the OB/GYN. I am pretty sure every at the end of their pregnancy momma was in that room. It was packed. As soon as I got checked in they called me back.
I explained to the nurse how I was feeling and I kept saying it was probably nothing and I felt kinda silly complaining with how busy it was in there. I apologized multiple times and said it was probably just my nerves healing or muscle soreness. The doc came in and she kinda agreed but wanted to check me out. She put her hand to my abdomen and pretty quickly sent me down to imaging to get an ultrasound.
I went to their office and again all the pregnant mommas are everywhere. I mean like I was surrounded which was oddly weird for me. I can’t explain it, but the pregnancy/ newborn thing for me now is weird. I guess in an emotional way. I barely sat down and I got called back. I commented, “Man, I thought I would be waiting awhile.” The technician said my doc wanted me to get checked out asap.
Once I got an ultrasound the tech quickly said, “Oh…” and did a few measurements made small talk about my lack of a uterus that was funny and said, “You need to head back up and see your doc.” I got up there and all the pregnant mommas are looking at their ultrasounds of their cute little babes in their bellies and I thought, “Not me. I got something going on and it isn’t a baby.”
I again skip ahead to the first in line and go by all the bellies and my doctor gets me in right away explaining to me I have a hemorrhagic cyst. I have suffered with cysts my whole life but they are natural cysts and ones that cause tenderness and sometimes pain. But never like this. It is a bleeding cyst and one that we hope resolves itself on its own.
So we are in wait and see mode. We are giving it three weeks and seeing what my body decides to do. It has nothing at all to do with my surgery and every thing to do with my luck of the draw. It wasn’t present at surgery time and is just something that popped up. She did warn me the best case scenario is it disintegrates on its own and is reabsorbed by my body which can happen. So this is what we are pulling for officially. She did warn that this will be extremely painful. I got a list of symptoms to look for should it burst. They all sound terrible. But the options for dealing with it if we don’t get the best case scenario need not be uttered cause NOPE!!! Nope!!! NOPE!!!
So per my usual personality…I will focus on the positive. I bought this birth year shirt a few weeks ago and it was too tight in my arms and I didn’t really like how snug it felt around my tummy. Well it was perfect today and I got multiple compliments on it. As well, I was last in my doc’s office July 30th and I have lost 14 lbs since then. My blood pressure was 86/60 the best it has ever been ever. You guys my hard work is working and not only do I feel healthy (minus my stupid ovary), but I am healthy.
If there is a lesson in this and I always look for lessons in life…it is definitely listening to your body. I had that nagging feeling that something was not right. But I was worried of worrying for nothing or bothering others. I was worried I was disrupting my family and my work life. I was worried about her being frustrated with me because my surgery was supposed to make me better. But it was something. We have to trust ourselves and what our bodies tell us.
There is a voice that doesn’t use words. Listen. – RUMI